Catatan di tengah malam.

Angin kuat beserta bunyi,
Sekali bertiup gerun sekali,
Sesudah angin datang si hujan,
Rintik-rintik dihening malam .

seeing circles

bought rounded sunnies 

circle-shaped sunnies

or whatever u call it 

from  www.byjap.com

 well presented packaging i must say 

super excited

only to found out that 

my nose tak cukup mancung to hold the sunnies

nevertheless, i'm still wearing it !

macam noh hujan bila rambut dia macam helmet tu

bird's eye view utk ilusi optik jadi hidung nampak mancung

hidung jambu mcam kartun lat

ni update random

aku nak pakai sunnies ni g pantai

tapi nampaknya cam lama lagi je nak jejak pantai 

so hambek ko 

aku jejak world wide web plak

-ohsorandompost-

happy bithday zella !

july fav month of the year 

kenapa ?

mestila sebab birthday aku !

and it july shows that we made it through half of the year so far

hahahaa 

plus birthday kawan kawan aku 

hari ni birthday zella

umur dia dah 24 

aku kawan ngan dia sejak skolah rendah lagi 

kira punya kira macam byk tahun dah 

walaupun dia midget 

namun jgn anda tersilap sangka

sebab dia yang slalu buli aku 

bukan aku yang buli dia 

hahaha

walaupun dia slalu buli aku 

namun kitaorg ni ngam

bak kata org puteh 

chemistry ! 

zella antara kawan aku yang suka buat benda2 bodo

kadang kadang, aku pun ikut gak 

but because of the stupid things she does and sometimes the stupid things that we do 

until today we have a lot to look back and laugh about 

kot kot aku tua nanti aku ada crita cool nak bgtau cucu aku 

hahahaaa

as a diving buddy, as an accomplice , as a partner in crime, as awesome leo babies , as a friend from primary school days till now, holy shit i really appreciate that god gave me a good set of wonderful friends and thank you for being one of them ! 

happy 24th birthday zella!

hoped that u had a blast !

moga ko dapat mathew yang ko selama ni inginkan

moga ko sukses and stay awesome as we age through life together ! 

happy birthday midget ! 

zella budak attention deficit disorder
aku tak . sebab aku follow je dia. haha
2011 birthday celebration

a bouquet of roses

i hate (wait hate maybe is a strong word. let's put dislike instead.) dislike watching rom-com ( romantic comedy) genre films/series. especially the 'out of this world fairy tale' kinda storyline. korean drama even worse , because the girls always seem to be portrayed as dumb/stupid and poor. 

because i believe these kinda stories yang feed the mind of young girls , to believe in some sort of a surreal world where the handsome prince will come and sweep u off your feet.  

so , if you think that somebody will declare his/her love to u in a stadium or some sort like in the movie never been kissed.think again.

if u think somebody will hang on the ferris wheel just to talk to ask u out like in the movie the notebook.think again.

and if u think somebody will propose to you with a thousand yellow daisies like in the series gilmore girls. think again. wait this last one might actually happen to u hopeless romantics out there , i tell u there is still hope for u guys .

the hopeless romantic

This person is in love with love.They believe in fairy tales and love.They're not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that's not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and the fanciful when you get to know them.They often live with rose colored glasses on.They make lovelook like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone.  

as written in urbandictionary.com

  

because the other day i was hanging out at a florist owned by my mom's friend . they were tying up this particular bouquet. 

100 stalks of roses. 

kau ada??

haha 

apparently a guy ordered this bouquet to propose to his girlfriend.

and the florist said once in a blue moon be one hopelessly in love dude a nice dude will order 500 stalk of roses . which will end up into a bouquet the size of a kopitiam table . 

seriously , i thought these kind of men are extinct.haha.

i mean people don't write letters anymore

but

for u hopeless romantic people

there is still HOPE

these men do STILL exist 

hahaaaa

teringin

teringin nak makan beef teppanyaki 

ngan johnny's steamboat

T_T

stalker

nowadays .

everybody is a stalker 

be it on twitter, on facebook, on blogs 

yup i know u yourself have done it 

at this era, everybody is a stalker .

here are some stalker songs i recommend the next time u stalk.haha

'strange and beautiful' - aqualung 

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyric's top
And you'll realise that you love me.

have u watched wicker park ? if not , go watch it 

wicker park is about a girl . who stalks a guy (josh hartnett) obsessively and will do anything to prevent him from being with someone else 

talk about psychooooo
psycho people = loss contact with reality , delusional , false beliefs  = scary people 

also not forgetting Clay Aiken's song 

'If i was invisible'- Clay Aiken 

What she doin' tonight? 
I wish I could be a fly on your wall.
Are you really alone? Who's stealing dreams?
Why can't I breathe you into my life?
(So tell me) What would it take to make you see that I'm alive?

If I was invisible
And I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible

seriously , i wish i could be a fly on your wall ???

scary . serious . 

if u were a fly i'll kill u with a fly swatter

another stalker song

'i stalk your profile' - jazz hayat and aziz harun
superb voice i must say

semua gambar gambar u bersama si dia 
dalam caption nya kata mu aku cinta dia 
reaksi ku meluat tapi sedih pun ada 
memang kau ini player tapi malangnya ku mahu kau jua 

hahaha ni lyric terbaik sebab dia insert perkataan 'meluat' dalam verse dia
cuba bgtau aku lagu mana letak perkataan meluat dlam verse dia

ni

'i blocked your profile'
suara minah ni bolehla. bolehlaaaa~

i blocked your profile 
because u freaked me out 

well said . well said.

Done with SPM, now what ?? : A Guide For Further Studies and what to expect

SPM is over, now what ?
i'm done with SPM in 2005 , went to uni in 2006, graduated in 2011, now i'm currently working in a firm
i'm no expert but i just wanna share what i went through to be where i am now.

the 2011 SPM results was the best recorded in five years .
congrats . 559 scored straight A+'s  in the 2011 SPM .
so if u are planning to score a a scholarship for medicine without straight A's in hand. think again . ur chances are pretty much slim.

On scholarship
there are a lot of scholarship around. depends, on what course u are taking. big companies like maybank and such are giving out scholarship depends on the area u wish to study. not to forget scholarship negeri like yayasan sabah , yayasan johor etc. make sure u are sabahan and of sabahan parentage to score yayasan sabah scholarship. sad to say i can't even apply for this as my parents are semenajung and i was born in sabah. my advise if u are johorean stay in johor ,make babies in johor , so that your child can apply for negeri scholar.

and if u do not manage to score any scholarship before hand, fret not, just remember to score in your first semester and apply for a JPA scholarship. i also do not know about this before hand. i guess i'm just not aware about it . what i'm trying to say here , there are so many ways to obtain scholarships or loan so don't make money an issue to not continue your tertiary studies.

Loan 
ok enough about scholarship, what if your results are not that fantastic to score one???
PTPTN loan . this is the answer for u
everybody i know who applied for PT confirm dapat . serious
but if u think your parents can support u, don't take PTPTN. after u finish off your studies, even before getting a job, u already owe rm 20000. that's a lot. while studying, u don't see it , u only see it afterwards when u have to actually pay for it. haha. but it's only rm100 per month. rest assured u'll be paying until u die .

what did i do ?
my way to tertiary level education
my results were mediocre. and when everybody filled in the form for matriculation program, i did not. my advice is if u don't think u can score n do well matriculation. DON'T GO for matriculation. i'm serious . even though u are promised with a place in the local university, but if u do not do well enough , u will get 'lelong' to any courses left to be filled. true story.

after SPM, i applied for local u . Filled in my upu form. And hoped for the best. i didn't apply for anything else. i had no back up plans. my first choice was architecture in uitm , second choice was something else can't remember , and the last few choices was chemical engineering /engineering and the last one was law.
thank god everything worked out . manage to score an interview for architecture in uitm . and finally landed a place in uitm studying architecture. syukur, everything was smooth sailing.

also make sure the course u applied for is accredited. so that all the years u spent on studying won't go to waste.

in order to choose the best course for you. please make sure u do a background check on what u will be learning and the working life after. most of the time spm leavers just pick and choose a course that they think are suited for them . one thing for sure , get advise from people taking the similar course u intended to take , get advise from the professionals. i think lack of advise and exploring job scope of what u intend to do in life leads spm leavers into taking up the wrong course. most important of all , do what u love to do. not what your parents dreamt of u doing. or else u will be wasting your time .

job market 
u might wanna be a disc jockey , pilot and what not . by all means chase your dreams. but don't forget to check the market demand. Some of my pilot friends still haven't scored a job till this day. but look forward ,your expertise might not be needed now, but maybe there is a demand for it in the few years to come.

conclusion 
the decision u make after spm pretty much gonna be the thing u'll be doing for life .
and whatever your spm result was , itu tak menjanjikan apa apa kat dunia ni. it's just a stepping stone. hard work and determination are all that matters. CGPA is the last thing people look at . not your bloody spm result. unless, spm is the last exmination u ambik -__-!

**my thoughts and experience might differ from others. this is just something that i went through . insight on what u'll be expecting after spm.

thoughts and what not

it's been three months now.
yup. i've been working for three months plus.
surprise. surprise .
even i'm surprised that i lasted this long.

work gradually becomes a routine.
a routine that passes through time . fast .
though it's becoming a routine , i still
i still have trouble waking up early in the morning
trying to stay up in the office is another thing
coffee helps though. coffee helps a lot.

after work , i still
i still get tired
even after a few months
so if i don't go out at night
i eat and retreat to bed .

sometimes i just can't go to sleep
i just stare and lay on my bed
or i read my timeline on twitter
which is normally flooded by insomniac
i shut down at 1.30-2.00pm and wake up at 7.05am

work gradually has been ok
learned quite a lot of things
alhamdulillah .
a few friends joined in the timesquare community
timesquare used to be boring
but now much better :)

i still wonder how people go through their whole life
working from 9 to 5
i'm truly amazed
because for 3 months i felt that
i haven't achieved much .
only thing i can be proud of is that i'm working

i think i can do a lot more
achieve more things
i think i'm not using my whole potential
now i'm stuck in a phase
ok i'm working , what now ??

time
time management is certainly the culprit here
no
no actually
it's procrastinating
i normally have a thousand things to do on my to-do-list
but i end up procrastinating
god help me

i read the papers the other day
the article wrote that a to-do-list can make you even more distracted
instead the article recommends to keep your to-do-list short and
decide what's important and stick to it for the day

the article wrote that we are living in an era of information overload
tweeting while watching tv , flicking through magazines while on the phone
we are living in a media heavy , socially networked life nowadays.
which is mostly true

i tweet when i'm at work
i go online when i'm at home
i'm looking at a screen practically 80 percent of the day
wake up and i will scroll my bb for twitter timeline
-__-!

the article said that in the upcoming book by the author
'sleeping with your smartphones'
argues that phones need to be switched of and 'outsmarted'
ngeh . funny but surprisingly true .
most of the time with the help of technology these days, i procrastinate
and delay things from getting done.

if u are still reading my jibber jabber
my point really is that
if i manage to manage my time, myself ,really well,
i guess i can achieve much more in these few months past

i think time flies really fast
and i should make the most out of it
still am. still trying .
organizing my mind. organize my life .
insyaallah :)

{ i come bearing gifts }

last monday i met up with nizam 

and he came bearing gifts 

heeeeee [senyum.sampai.ke.telinga]

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moleskine 

hahaa refer to post di mana aku kutuk moleskine 

a planner 

in an attempt to make my life more organized

i know it's february already 

but hey it's never too late to start

hahaa. [i hope so]

thank u mr nizam 

:)

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a tshirt!

 

All that is gold does not glitter,
not all those who wander are lost;
the old that is strong does not wither,
deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
a light from the shadows shall spring;
renewed shall be blade that was broken,
the crownless again shall be king

_J.R.R Tolkien_

it's about perception 

where Tolkien is trying to say that things are not always as it seems, and nor you should assume things will stay as they first appear to be

deep much ?

ngeh 

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mercy mercy demo

never heard of them??

spare a few minutes

click this link 

mercy mercy

my personal recomendation

try hearing out these tracks 

papaya stick and devil is uncle

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lakme

curl activator balm

super awesome product!

i swear my life on this!

serious

if u have curly hair 

and u want to have awesome curls like mine

use this god-sent product from lakme

affordable

delivers ultimate bouncy curls

eliminates frizz

the problem with this product,

u can't find it in kk.

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thank u mr nizam

for bringing me whatever is deprived here in the land below the wind 

much appreciated :)

wordless wednesday #3

KL Bird Park

the other day i visited the KL Bird Park 

situated at Lake Gardens, Kuala Lumpur 

yup this is one my activities during my unemployed days in the month of October

seee i told u i was busy occupying my time with educational activities .haha

the admission fees rm 20 ringgit perperson if u're malaysian . foreigners much more expensive apparently.

to me , it was quite pricey . to me lah . but the whole experience was definitely awesome so i didn't mind the price at the end of the day . world largest free flight aviary ok/super awesome birds walking on the pavement like a herd of sheep walking in the middle of the road in new zealand.  no point of me writing long essays so let me stuff u with pictures.haha.

once u step in the aviary , u'll be greeted by lovebirds. banyak giler . serious tak tipu. belum apa apa dah stuck situ about ten minutes. ok above pics are not love birds. haha. above pic are egret. EGRET ok bukan STORK. 

STORK tu lain. ramai org panggil stork . sebenarnya dia egret. misconception warga kota kini. if you're living in kota kinabalu u definitely need not go far to see egret. literally u just have to take 'jalan laut' dekat masjid bandaraya confirm ada punya. 

ok i was literally running around taking photos of the peacock until i realised.......

(beautiful shot kannnnnn ;p )

this bird is like wearing a headgear piece. cool huh.

.....until i realised.ni sambungan caption atas. haha. peacocks are everywhere in this park. if they organize an election here, peacocks will definitely win hands down. serious. this is a picture of peacocks conquering the park slowly planning to take over the park. serious. 

nijam trying to take a photo of the group of peacocks but failed...

tak sure burung apa ni. haha lupa. 

me feeding mr peacock/we actually wondered how to actually get up close to any of the peacocks , definitely bird food was the answer. the birds will come close to u to get some bird food. so bring lots of 50 cent coins!!!

ok mr peacock rarely open up like this. serious. so this picture very rare ok.

nijam with mr peacock. mr peacock is kinda shy . shy or sombong tak sure. mr peacock will take small steps away from u if u were to take picture with it.

nijam hiding behind mr peacock. 

awkward pose with mr peacock

another one .sorry overflowing picture of peacock. but they are so adorable. comel ok.

peacock=will do anything for bird food

comel kan this bird. i think i saw this somewhere . in one of the cartoons. cannot remember which one though.

anak ayam dan anak itik! comel!

i think bird park was fun. puas hati la with what u pay. but i guess if u come at the right time during feeding time and the amphitheater show i guess it is more worth it. but all together awesome la. way much better than my trip to zoo negara. if u're near to lake gardens take a detour to kl bird park. if u don't have 20 ringgit with u outside of the park plenty of monyet for free entertainment. haha. 

the bird park opens daily from 9 am till 6 pm

things nobody knows about me because they never bothered to ask

1.aku suka baring atas couch sambil minum milo ais dalam botol 

when i'm hungry , and i'm lazy to cook and there is nothing in the fridge, i make milo ais.

with extra milo(normally i lost count on how many spoons i have added to the mix) and a lot of ice in it. i put it in a bottle and shake it hard . then i will lie down on a couch/bed and drink milo sambil baring baring tgk tv atau tgk langit. mak aku kata habit ni tak bagus,dia macam hisap botol susu sambil baring. i don't actually know since when i picked up this habit .

tapi aku sumpah bukan budak baby suka minum susu sambil baring time kecik kecik. mak aku kata dulu time aku kecik kecik bila susu botol aku tak habis and aku simpan tepi abang aku datang sapu susu botol aku sambil baring dan habiskan. -__-! mak aku kata aku berenti minum susu lagi cepat dari abang aku . so aku dapat konklusi mungkin masa time kecik kecik aku tak banyak minum susu so sekarang aku balas dendam minum milo ais sambil baring . boleh pakai tak konklusi ni?

2.aku tak suka warna pink 

mungkin ramai yang dah tau . tapi aku nak cerita gak . when i was a young my mum painted my room the colour pink . and my room was pink for quite a long time . i guess when i see pink aku muak. and i strongly think that i'm not really a pink person. tapi aku suka lagu pink - aerosmith . ni best . 

3. aku ada bantal busuk

ye aku ada bantal busuk . warna biru polka dot putih . busuk tu takla. tak busuk.wangi apa . hahahaaaa.

people say i'm hygienic. i don't think i'm hygienic. serious . and it's not that i don't wanna wash my bantal busuk but it's kekabu u can't wash it . u can only air dry it . i sometimes air dry it . most of the time it's with me following wherever i go . bantal busuk aku dah sampai jepun . serious. it's not that i'm attached to it/that i have attachment issues or anything , it's just it's been with me for as long as i remember umur aku lapan tahun kot. 

pergh tua sial bantal busuk aku . it was a gift from arwah nenek .she called it bantal tiga tetek . ha mana nak dapat bantal tiga tetek . vintage . hahahahaa. aku nak selitkan gambar bantal busuk aku. tapi nanti korang muntah pulak 

*dulu roomate aku pernah spray febreeze dekat bantal aku. apa lah dosa bantal aku -__-!

4. aku ada lesen kreta

serious. cuma aku tak drive . aku tak tau kenapa. ni one of the mysteries in life. serious. 

5. kalo i lay flat on my tummy , korang akan sedar belakang aku tak rata and besar kat bahagian tulang kepak belah kanan . 

benda ni mmg tak ramai org tau. hahaha . benda ni jadi bila time time aktif bersukan dulu, time-time terlompat sini dan terlompat sana. sebab aku banyak pkai anggota belah kanan for leaps,balances and etc (sebab kanan aku lagi bagus dr kiri) so tulang dia jadi besar. mcam defect ar kira aku ni. hahahaaa. ni mcam shalin bowler malaysia tu kan tangan dia besar sebelah . pernah g physio dulu kat jepun . and the doctor suruh buat some exercises supaya takde la obvious sgt but it was a long time ago , and i didn't even regularly do it and now i totally forgot about it .i guess this thing won't really bother me now. but mungkin time tua nanti . ngeh . 

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