conversations

"have u noticed , i've never been impressed by your friends from new york and london", kate nash sibuk menyanyikan ringtone tepon aku .

mim   : hello

baem : mim happy birthday ! ko dah tua !

mim   :aku dah tua , tapi ko nak kawin dah .

baem  :ko andartu !

mim   : bye baem . 

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a year older , a year wiser

i hope so 

one more year, suku abad dah aku hidup

this year sumpah aku rasa tua 

a bouquet of roses

i hate (wait hate maybe is a strong word. let's put dislike instead.) dislike watching rom-com ( romantic comedy) genre films/series. especially the 'out of this world fairy tale' kinda storyline. korean drama even worse , because the girls always seem to be portrayed as dumb/stupid and poor. 

because i believe these kinda stories yang feed the mind of young girls , to believe in some sort of a surreal world where the handsome prince will come and sweep u off your feet.  

so , if you think that somebody will declare his/her love to u in a stadium or some sort like in the movie never been kissed.think again.

if u think somebody will hang on the ferris wheel just to talk to ask u out like in the movie the notebook.think again.

and if u think somebody will propose to you with a thousand yellow daisies like in the series gilmore girls. think again. wait this last one might actually happen to u hopeless romantics out there , i tell u there is still hope for u guys .

the hopeless romantic

This person is in love with love.They believe in fairy tales and love.They're not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that's not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and the fanciful when you get to know them.They often live with rose colored glasses on.They make lovelook like an art form with all the romantic things they do for their special someone.  

as written in urbandictionary.com

  

because the other day i was hanging out at a florist owned by my mom's friend . they were tying up this particular bouquet. 

100 stalks of roses. 

kau ada??

haha 

apparently a guy ordered this bouquet to propose to his girlfriend.

and the florist said once in a blue moon be one hopelessly in love dude a nice dude will order 500 stalk of roses . which will end up into a bouquet the size of a kopitiam table . 

seriously , i thought these kind of men are extinct.haha.

i mean people don't write letters anymore

but

for u hopeless romantic people

there is still HOPE

these men do STILL exist 

hahaaaa

Less Is More

i was so ecstatic when i saw this on google
straight away my mind was saying
"i know this! chicago school , illinois institute of technology. Mies van der Rohe !"
history of architecture all over again -__-!

ok bersedia untuk nada poyo budak architecture
haha aku rasa macam aku dalam secret society pulak . 
cuma 'certain' org je boleh tafsir gambar doodle google ni . hahaa . 
ok sumpah poyo  tak perlu. hahaa. but it's fun seeing google doodle tribute to one of the otai of the architecture world.

even though i am not into your 'less is more' philosophy, still,
happy belated birthday mr Ludwig Mies van der Rohe!
confirm ko kat kubur asyik terbatuk batuk je sebab nama ko asyik disebut2 je dlm dunia arki ni.

random note
btw. doodles are the fun, surprising and sometimes spontaneous changes that are made to the Google logo to celebrate holidays, anniversaries and the lives of famous artists, pioneers and scientists.
courtesy of google .

Done with SPM, now what ?? : A Guide For Further Studies and what to expect

SPM is over, now what ?
i'm done with SPM in 2005 , went to uni in 2006, graduated in 2011, now i'm currently working in a firm
i'm no expert but i just wanna share what i went through to be where i am now.

the 2011 SPM results was the best recorded in five years .
congrats . 559 scored straight A+'s  in the 2011 SPM .
so if u are planning to score a a scholarship for medicine without straight A's in hand. think again . ur chances are pretty much slim.

On scholarship
there are a lot of scholarship around. depends, on what course u are taking. big companies like maybank and such are giving out scholarship depends on the area u wish to study. not to forget scholarship negeri like yayasan sabah , yayasan johor etc. make sure u are sabahan and of sabahan parentage to score yayasan sabah scholarship. sad to say i can't even apply for this as my parents are semenajung and i was born in sabah. my advise if u are johorean stay in johor ,make babies in johor , so that your child can apply for negeri scholar.

and if u do not manage to score any scholarship before hand, fret not, just remember to score in your first semester and apply for a JPA scholarship. i also do not know about this before hand. i guess i'm just not aware about it . what i'm trying to say here , there are so many ways to obtain scholarships or loan so don't make money an issue to not continue your tertiary studies.

Loan 
ok enough about scholarship, what if your results are not that fantastic to score one???
PTPTN loan . this is the answer for u
everybody i know who applied for PT confirm dapat . serious
but if u think your parents can support u, don't take PTPTN. after u finish off your studies, even before getting a job, u already owe rm 20000. that's a lot. while studying, u don't see it , u only see it afterwards when u have to actually pay for it. haha. but it's only rm100 per month. rest assured u'll be paying until u die .

what did i do ?
my way to tertiary level education
my results were mediocre. and when everybody filled in the form for matriculation program, i did not. my advice is if u don't think u can score n do well matriculation. DON'T GO for matriculation. i'm serious . even though u are promised with a place in the local university, but if u do not do well enough , u will get 'lelong' to any courses left to be filled. true story.

after SPM, i applied for local u . Filled in my upu form. And hoped for the best. i didn't apply for anything else. i had no back up plans. my first choice was architecture in uitm , second choice was something else can't remember , and the last few choices was chemical engineering /engineering and the last one was law.
thank god everything worked out . manage to score an interview for architecture in uitm . and finally landed a place in uitm studying architecture. syukur, everything was smooth sailing.

also make sure the course u applied for is accredited. so that all the years u spent on studying won't go to waste.

in order to choose the best course for you. please make sure u do a background check on what u will be learning and the working life after. most of the time spm leavers just pick and choose a course that they think are suited for them . one thing for sure , get advise from people taking the similar course u intended to take , get advise from the professionals. i think lack of advise and exploring job scope of what u intend to do in life leads spm leavers into taking up the wrong course. most important of all , do what u love to do. not what your parents dreamt of u doing. or else u will be wasting your time .

job market 
u might wanna be a disc jockey , pilot and what not . by all means chase your dreams. but don't forget to check the market demand. Some of my pilot friends still haven't scored a job till this day. but look forward ,your expertise might not be needed now, but maybe there is a demand for it in the few years to come.

conclusion 
the decision u make after spm pretty much gonna be the thing u'll be doing for life .
and whatever your spm result was , itu tak menjanjikan apa apa kat dunia ni. it's just a stepping stone. hard work and determination are all that matters. CGPA is the last thing people look at . not your bloody spm result. unless, spm is the last exmination u ambik -__-!

**my thoughts and experience might differ from others. this is just something that i went through . insight on what u'll be expecting after spm.

thoughts and what not

it's been three months now.
yup. i've been working for three months plus.
surprise. surprise .
even i'm surprised that i lasted this long.

work gradually becomes a routine.
a routine that passes through time . fast .
though it's becoming a routine , i still
i still have trouble waking up early in the morning
trying to stay up in the office is another thing
coffee helps though. coffee helps a lot.

after work , i still
i still get tired
even after a few months
so if i don't go out at night
i eat and retreat to bed .

sometimes i just can't go to sleep
i just stare and lay on my bed
or i read my timeline on twitter
which is normally flooded by insomniac
i shut down at 1.30-2.00pm and wake up at 7.05am

work gradually has been ok
learned quite a lot of things
alhamdulillah .
a few friends joined in the timesquare community
timesquare used to be boring
but now much better :)

i still wonder how people go through their whole life
working from 9 to 5
i'm truly amazed
because for 3 months i felt that
i haven't achieved much .
only thing i can be proud of is that i'm working

i think i can do a lot more
achieve more things
i think i'm not using my whole potential
now i'm stuck in a phase
ok i'm working , what now ??

time
time management is certainly the culprit here
no
no actually
it's procrastinating
i normally have a thousand things to do on my to-do-list
but i end up procrastinating
god help me

i read the papers the other day
the article wrote that a to-do-list can make you even more distracted
instead the article recommends to keep your to-do-list short and
decide what's important and stick to it for the day

the article wrote that we are living in an era of information overload
tweeting while watching tv , flicking through magazines while on the phone
we are living in a media heavy , socially networked life nowadays.
which is mostly true

i tweet when i'm at work
i go online when i'm at home
i'm looking at a screen practically 80 percent of the day
wake up and i will scroll my bb for twitter timeline
-__-!

the article said that in the upcoming book by the author
'sleeping with your smartphones'
argues that phones need to be switched of and 'outsmarted'
ngeh . funny but surprisingly true .
most of the time with the help of technology these days, i procrastinate
and delay things from getting done.

if u are still reading my jibber jabber
my point really is that
if i manage to manage my time, myself ,really well,
i guess i can achieve much more in these few months past

i think time flies really fast
and i should make the most out of it
still am. still trying .
organizing my mind. organize my life .
insyaallah :)

{ i come bearing gifts }

last monday i met up with nizam 

and he came bearing gifts 

heeeeee [senyum.sampai.ke.telinga]

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moleskine 

hahaa refer to post di mana aku kutuk moleskine 

a planner 

in an attempt to make my life more organized

i know it's february already 

but hey it's never too late to start

hahaa. [i hope so]

thank u mr nizam 

:)

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a tshirt!

 

All that is gold does not glitter,
not all those who wander are lost;
the old that is strong does not wither,
deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
a light from the shadows shall spring;
renewed shall be blade that was broken,
the crownless again shall be king

_J.R.R Tolkien_

it's about perception 

where Tolkien is trying to say that things are not always as it seems, and nor you should assume things will stay as they first appear to be

deep much ?

ngeh 

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mercy mercy demo

never heard of them??

spare a few minutes

click this link 

mercy mercy

my personal recomendation

try hearing out these tracks 

papaya stick and devil is uncle

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lakme

curl activator balm

super awesome product!

i swear my life on this!

serious

if u have curly hair 

and u want to have awesome curls like mine

use this god-sent product from lakme

affordable

delivers ultimate bouncy curls

eliminates frizz

the problem with this product,

u can't find it in kk.

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thank u mr nizam

for bringing me whatever is deprived here in the land below the wind 

much appreciated :)

Dear 30 year old me.

dear 30 year old me,

by this time u'r 30 , -___-! [duh],
and the year is 2018 , -_____-! [double duh]

this is me writing to u at the age of 23. [ 23 ok. hey it's not even July yet ]
by the age of 30 i hope u have accomplished some of the things i hoped that u had already accomplished maybe even before u reached 30 [ haha -..-! ]

ok first and foremost
by the age of 30 u must be happily married(to someone superbly tall and handsome.haha)/ or somewhere close(close meaning very close to getting hitched). if u're not married by 30 . haih . i sure am disappointed. 30 tak kawin lagi sumpah an.dar.tu -..-!

if u'r married, god i sure hoped that u'r married by then. good.
what u have a kid ??? god didn't see this coming. by thirty if u have a kid wow, if u have two kids by now, god u're a factory

and u'r still working?? i didn't expect u to last that long. u deserve a pat on the back. (yes do it now. the 23 u says so)

i sure hope u are riding one hot smokin ride. maybe a jeep or something. i doubt it we can afford the mini by 30. it's ok to still dream bout it. haha. and u drive already. [please]

by thirty,
u at least had taken advance diving license . and had at least gone to sipadan once in your freaking lifetime. if not slap yourself, u are starting to get old and boring. seriously. get help. go seek zella now. if she's still happening by 30. haha

by thirty u at least had traveled to six different country . no matter where it is. it shows that u'r still fun. like the 23 u . u'r 30 fun and have a lot of money to go travel and waste money. haha

by thirty
u'r not living with mum and dad, u have your own crib. superbly cool. because u'r an architect.architect equals to cool crib.  i have little hope on you still being an architect at 30. living the dream ?? and u have a fat cat living wit u .

by thirty,
u had attended several close friends weddings. and they are happily married by now.

by thirty,
u had done bungee jumping. (high five if u accomplished this)

by thirty
u still keep close contact with friends .

by thirty,
u had conquered mount kinabalu. oh this suppose to be before 25. so it's supposed to be done 
u should have mastered the art of cooking

by thirty
u shouldn't dress like u'r 50. your hair is still black.and u'r not fat. if u r wearing size 29 please throw that burger in your hand rite now.MOK. and u are a cool ,young 30 person. when people guess how old are u , they should guess that u are 23 . (i'm serious bout this)

by thirty,
sabah/kota kinabalu/ is still in your heart

-this is what i can come up with rite now. but i'll sure add it up time to time.hahaha -

Congratulations! : october unemployed days

what i've beeen up to for the past month 

OCTOBERRRRRRRR

last month before i flew off to kl 

i made a pit stop before going off to the airport 

to kawin kakak awang 

                                                                             

congratulations!!

the door gift, penuh tangan . memang tidak rugi kalo pegi 

;)

seeeeeeeeeee

see i told u i wasn't sleeping at home doing nothing

always productive even though i'm unemployed :P

october unemployed days to be continued ///

a short update

it's been ages since i the last post

been busy i guess

hei even though i'm not working i can be busy !

seriously

damn serious 

more updates to come .

what i've been up to 

what i've done this past weeks . 

TUNGGU

menonton television

menonton television 

antara salah satu aktiviti tetap para penganggur

aku rasa ni bulan ke 4 aku menganggur

alhamdulilah . aku sihat walafiat :))

hahaa

ok the other day , i watched a show on tv 

about a cat named Dusty 

what is so interesting about this cat is that,

Dusty actually steals stuff and bring it back home 

cool kan 

come to think of it 

kucing aku pun selalu bawa barang balik rumah

mengiow utk menunjukkan hasil penangkapan beliau

namun kucing saya bawa balik burung, katak, cicak , tikus dan sewaktu dengan nya

dusty ni pula bawa balik swimsuit ,patung softtoy, dan gloves

pelik tapi sumpah comel gila!

a picture of dusty taken from http://www.dailymail.co.uk

more about dusty klik here

wordlesswednesday #2

when i was 13

while i was cleaning up my room the other day

look what i foundddd!

aku jumpa buku log sains aku yang lama

when i was 13

bila aku masuk form 1 

terkena pulak masuk klas pn jeanie yong

haiyh. dahla kena duk kat makmal sains dekat toilet.

krusi lab yang tak best 

buat sakit bontot.

pastu kena cari buku log yang ada 400-500 pages

berat tau nak bawak pegi skul

haih

ni gambar buku log aku 

(sebelum buang ambik gambar dulu.penat kehulur kehilir setahun kat skul)

buku ni berat gila

pn jeanie yong memang suruh decorate buku sains aku

ni sehabis lawa aku boleh buat

log book ada markah tau!

dalam log book

kerja kursus 

then slogan sains???ntah aku pun lupa .

dalam log book

slogan yang lebih kurang sama -__-!

tak cukup ngan nak kena hias log book 

kena lukis kotak utk cikgu aku cop dan sign. 

haish 

menyusahkan

tapi aku lebih bijak

 sebab

aku lukis kotak banyak banyak 

pastu aku fotostat

pastu aku tampal. 

bijak kan :p

tulisan aku yang bulat-bulat

paling tak boleh blah sign jawi tu

hahahaaa

aku tak pernah suka pn jeanie yong

aku rasa dia pun tak suka aku

dahla kena buat log book

kena berkebun

group aku nyer kebun tak brapa menjadi

hahaaa

lantak la

yang penting pmr aku science A

:)

wordlesswednesday

aku ada jersey malaysia . ko ada???

aku teringin nak post gambar .biarpun bilik sepah . rambut macam kelly ng gila(ni mak aku yang kata). biorle ni kan belog aku. bukan belog bapak ko.  

rupanya dah kamis

ni lah kehidupan seorg penganggur. we can't even tell what day is it.matter of fact ,i can't even tell what's the date. 

a place i call

during the flight back to kota kinabalu from kuala lumpur,

i was late. like always. rushed to the airport.

practically breeze walking with heels to the departure gate.

cried like there's no tomorrow

leaving for kk used to be a happy moment

but now leaving is the hardest part. :s

i was seated next to nobody and the window seat was occupied by 50-ish old american guy

due to emotional breakdown(emo seketika) i ate my dinner and slept through the flight 

dah la flight aku penuh dgn uncivilised punya org . choi. such a nuisance . 

when i arrived ,i felt better with happy thoughts of home and the lovely kittens,

before i leave the plane , i ask the 50 ish american guy

me : are u here on a holiday ? <tengah bajet nak senaraikan sabah as the most friendliest people on earth>

50-ish american guy : no , this is my home. <pergh org puteh tak sedar diri. bajet malaysian plak.haha>

me : or malaysia my second home ?? 

50-ish american guy : no. i work here . it's been nine years. in and out for business trip. but i settled here because i like it here very much. are u on a holiday ?

me : <eh dia pulak tanya aku holiday ke pulak. dah habis asian dah muka aku> no. this is my home . kata aku sambil tersenyum

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apa yg aku nk sampaikan

**aku bangga org luar suka dan terpesona dekat kk. aku bersyukur aku dok kat kk. truly a nice place to live :) 

Kota Kinabalu, is a place i call home :)

happy anniversary :)

kringggg...............kringgggggggggggggggggg

handphone ku berbunyi. 

(eh handphone ku guna nada dering men's need nyanyian semula kate nash. ternyata kring kring tu dusta)

aku tgk handphone 

*alamak ni papa. bisik hati kecilku . pura-pura masih mengantuk. nanti aku kena gosok baju pulak 

"girl dah bangun tak . papa baru ingat besok 6th of july . anniversary papa mama. girl pergi one borneo tak ?? "

suara cepu cemas bapaku . mungkin panik . hahaa aku pun jawab dengan mengantuknya aku tak pergi mana mana hari tu. 

6th of july 

happy anniversary papa and mama 

holy shit u guys have been married for god knows 25 years 

haha. actually aku sendiri pun tak sure whether 25 years ke tak i think more sebab abg aku pun umur dah 25 meaning aku ni dah 23. damn u numbers

alhamdullilah......

i salute u guys

and every happily married couple out there 

only god knows what u guys have been through

yang patut dapat award bukan datuk-datuk yang bayar untuk dapat award 

award tu patut goes out to u all 

sumpah salute

aku nak selitkan gambar parents aku tapiiii takpe la. 

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tiba tiba terhook dekat lagu bo iqram amir ni pulak / hahahaa

aku bias , aku tau :P

weeee
it's the month of july :)
july oh july
i love the month of july

in a relationship with my glasses

8 June 2011

tarikh bersejarah bagi aku 

hahahaaa

besejarah la sangat 

hari ni 

akibat dipengaruhi oleh zella

aku juga telah membeli sepasang kanta mata palsu 

eh jap

sebab power mata aku seblah lain lain dan jauh beza

aku tepaksa beli dua kotak

walaupun niat di hati hanya mahu mencoba

ni kaler kelabu

kalo kaler hijau

aku rasa mata aku boleh jadi kucing

hasilnya

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mata aku biut + juling

ok pelik 

sejujurnya aku rasa pelik pkai kanta mata palsu

lagi lagi bila rasa blur di tepi tepi

dan apabila mau keluar 

tergesa gesa mencari cermin mata

only to sedar aku tak perlukan cermin mata

malah tambah pening bila pkai cermin mata

+ aku rasa macam ada plastik di mata aku 

(hahaha . ye memang ada plastik di mata anda -__-!)

+sejak darjah satu aku pkai cermin mata, terasa sumpah pelik meninggalkan cermin mata di rumah

rasanya bukan utk kegunaan harian, sebab aku lebih sukakan cermin mata  :)

thoughts II

arrived home safely.
ah heaven.
home cooked meals.
lazying around the queen sized bed.
what more could i possibly ask for.
alhamdullilah :)

thoughts

shouldn't have.
created the mess in the first place.
tangled and attached.
distraught.
uncertain.
leaving is just a hard thing to do right now.

currently

tgh blogwalking
jalan jalan baca blog org org random

menyampah BILA
buka buka je blog org yang random
lagu lagu random kedengaran
lagu jiwang korea mana ntah

LAGI menyampah BILA
aku tgh syok layan playlist aku sendiri
ko pulak dok sibuk nak PAKSA aku dgr PLAYLIST KO ITU

PALING menyampah BILA
tak jumpa pun button nak stop lagu yang ko paksa aku dengar tu
kalo sedap takpe jugak

setengah org suka makan nasi goreng
setengah org suka makan mee goreng
ko tak boleh nak paksa org makan makanan kegemaran ko

BILA aku tak jumpa butang nak stop playlist ko tu
aku mengambil langkah drastik
tutup terus blog ngko
puas hati aku