RE : BB cult http://bonjella.blogspot.com/2010/12/bb-cult.html

pd bulan december ni
aku , yang tidak berniat lansung utk membeli bb
telah tumpas dan membeli beri hitam lancang 
mengikut kamus english ke melayu bold - lancang , berani , tabah 


aku menggunakan postpaid
tahukah anda bahawa
jika anda nak menggunakan perkhidmatan bbm(blackberry messenger)
itu sebnarnya bukan free
saya ulang bukan free
coz beri hitam menggunakan BIS (blackberry internet service)
meaning to say u have to subscribe to this
if u're using prepaid takpe lagi . u can control u'r usage
kalo postpaid . mampus pakej dahla mahal sebulan belum termasuk kadar panggilan
dan saya nak ingatkan BUKAN semua org memiliki blackberry yang anda boleh ber-bbm
meaning to say
pd aku pengguna beri hitam hanya akan untung sekiranya kawan2 dia menggunakan beri hitam jugak
and bbm tu hanya akan benefit pada pengguna when u r contacting people out of your country ar kiranya
(bbm antara pengguna overseas memang aku akur byk untung . tapi setakat tu je la benefit dia)

dulu aku enggan subscribe bis plan
tapi kawan aku kata bagus ko buang je fon ko tu pegi laut .
so aku subscribe
aku tumpas kepada system 
aku tumpas kepada apa yang market mahukan 
aku tumpas dengan memiliki beri hitam lancang  

dahulu cukup sekadar mengupdate fb bila ada masa menghadap laptop
sekraang update via beri hitam
twitter .facebook . shit. apa ini semua. dulu org pos surat je .
teknologi semakin lama memakan manusia
dulu minum kedai kopi waitress hantar minuman
skrang kena ambik minuman mcam tunggu giliran kat bank
tunggu nombor kena panggil
apakah ini semua ?

shit aku ditelan teknologi
shit aku telah ditelan ke dalam bb cult
shit aku telah menjadi org yang pegang bb eventhough tgh lepak ramai2
shit. shit. shit.

dan kalo aku tesalah hantar msg
itu sebab aku tak biasa menggunakan beri hitam
so fak beri hitam lancang
kalo aku lebih dr seminit memgang beri hitam lancang aku
tolong tolong berikan aku kesedaran sivik pada dunia realiti
secara logiknya , i think it's rude
ko tgh lepak ,having conversations, ko berendut pulak dengan beri hitam ko .
so pls tegur aku jika aku berbuat demikian
jgan jadikan aku pengguna beri hitam yang menjengkelkan
kata konklusi aku . fak bb .

satu lagi teori aku 
bila ko pegang bb, ko kena pegang dua tangan sebab qwerty keypad dia dan jugak sebab dia besar 
so bila ko pegang fon ko dua tangan dia menampakkan ko sgt konsentrasi pada benda tesebut 
menampakkan anda sgt taksub pada beri hitam .

awak gay ? ada aku kesah ?

seriously are u paid to do this 

so u're gay . ada aku kesah 

i mean 

perlu ke kau 

do u really need everybody to acknowledge that u're gay 

do you really need everybody to accept u're gay 

ko nak jadi gay ke tak suka hati ko la 

g cukbon lelaki . ada aku kesah 

god u're so gay 

u don't need people's approval /acceptance 

do whatever u want 

come on la 

this is malaysia

seksualiti merdeka

merdeka la sangat

respect malaysia for what it is 

once u change it , it's not malaysia no more

* this is my personal opinion . u don't agree with me ? ada aku kesah ?

festive mood

"...all  i want for christmas is you ..."

i love it when it is festive season 

the last minute shopping 

the sales , the festive rush 

hell when i wanted to get a cake for a friend's christmas dinner 

strawberry cake house was packed with this last minute dessert shoppers

everybody was buying cake like there was no tommorow 

i should have learned how to bake cakes , i'll be making money like nobody's business 

the colourful deco wars amongst the mall 

except for suria sabah's christmas tree at the main entrance .

frail ,fragile, and horrible looking trees  

merry christmas :)

especially to my friends celebrating christmas and are not here to celebrate it with us 

to joyce , christina, hazel  and natalie, wishing u a very merry christmas :)

a bucket full of tears

been a depressing week 
results are out 
extending another semester 
yeah shit happens 
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and if it is not bad enough 
while my mum n my dad were in kl 
we got an mms by my mum's sis saying that my uncle was critically ill 
we decided to visit my uncle in ipoh 


knowing my uncle 
he's a fighter 
everytime he is admitted 
be it for major operation
i know that he will survive


all this while 
aku tau dia kuat 
everytime he is admitted 
i'm not worried 
i know he can make it  


we arrived at general hosp Ipoh at 3 am 
we tried to visit 
but unfortunately 
he was in the high dependency unit 
therefore it was locked 


sewaktu itu 
aunt aku dan anak-anak nya dah berkampung dekat hosp 
beralaskan tikar aunt aku anak beranak tidur di luar unit tersebut 
since we can't do anythin we went back to my aunt's place 
decided to go back early in the morning tommorow 


after breakfast we went to the hosp 
there in the high dependency unit 
my uncle rested on the hosp bed 

there 
i can't hold my tears 


my uncle was on machine support 
with all the wires strap on to him 
i started to cry 


according to the nurse 
(nurse tu betul2 muka seposen je)
"he is critically ill" 
his pancreas and his kidneys are failing him 
his heart weak 
i started to wept 


the nurse said that he may be unconscious but maybe he can still listen 
deep inside i know he's not gonna last long 


seeing his condition 
we tried to change our flight tickets back home 
unfortunately , no ticket was available 
be it air asia / malaysia airlines 


bila nak keluar dari high dependancy unit tu 
mak aku pesan 
"dah jgn nangis . lap air mata tu . jgan nangis depan aunt"
i have to be strong in front of my aunt 
she has been through a lot 


setengah jam lepas keluar dr wad tu 
my parents were called 
definitely not a good sign 
a few minutes after that 
a few doctors were rushing up the stairs into the high dependency unit 


i couldn't hold my tears anymore 
after a few minutes 
it was official 
my uncle had left us 


i'm sorry 
i didn't call u when i was in shah alam 
i'm sorry i didn't make a point to call u once in a while 
to make sure u were feeling well 
i'm sorry 


u always make me feel like i'm at home 
whenever i was around in ipoh 
i never felt like out of place 
because i know i still have u and your family in ipoh 
i'm sorry i've troubled u around 


u've been a great uncle to me 
tak sempat nak balas budi uncle 
after all u've been through 
i know u're a fighter 
u fought a great battle 
may u rest in peace


-al-fatihah uncle ellias- 

apa tu ?

org kata kalo ko nangis pun tak guna , bukannya boleh ubah apa apa pun

aku kata suka hati aku la nak nangis ke, sebab bila aku nangis aku rasa puas

lega sikit emosi di dada., tak sure la btul ke tak //

tapi ada aku kesah ?

ntah-ntah aku ni ada jodoh utk kerja ngan waterworks department kot